Am I a sadist? If so how can I stop?

Question

Please no stupid answers I am a 19 year old female. I think I am a sadist. When I was younger I pinched a baby multiple times to get sexual gratification. This happened when I was 10 and I felt bad afterwards because the baby cried. I love to see women humiliated. I am a virgin and the only way I can get any sexual feeling is to imagine or see women in degrading positions.
I wish I could stop but I cant. I love seeing rape and abuse and it makes me feel sexually satisfied also after I get the feeling of sexual gratification I feel really guilty or just blank and devoid of any thought. I like to watch porns Such as face bashing, rape fantasy and hardcore porn. I know I sound crazy but I hate myself for it. Is this normAl for females? Will it go away when I start having sex?Am I a sadist? If so how can I stop?

Answer 1

There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Feelings like that are perfectly natural. I suggest you look up BDSM. Remember, though, that everything you do has to be consensual.

Answer 2

Your are not a sadist, you just have a sexual fantasy, just like every other person out there. If you want to act out your fantasies but cant find a partner in real life to act them out with try adult role-playing. I think you'll find that a lot of people have similar fantasies as you. My recommendation to you google "adult role-play sites" find a site you like, join it, and live out your sexual fantasies.

Answer 3

No it is not normal whatsoever. Very sick and can be helped with some therapy, probably. You have already developed very very bad sexual ideals and thoughts, bad bad images...full of shame and pain....you don't know it yet but you're already damaged enough that it needs to be looked at by a psychologist.....IT IS VERY VERY NOT NORMAL, get help....sadist......I hope better things for you, right now you've reached bottom barrel but help is out there...sadist. Best of luck, XOXOX

Answer 4

if you dislike this part of yourself, you can either go to a counsellor/psycologist/psyciatrist and get help, or learn to accept this part of yourself. become part of or learm about the BDSM culture, and educate yourself.

most of all, remember that all sex must be consenusual, even more so "edge" (hardcore) BDSM.

i hope i helped

Answer 5

it's bdsm related why do you think they came up with the idea of flogging? it's normal but just don't let it get out of control. there's people who get off at the thought of pain but not extreme things.