I'm a 17 year old boy. I know that I'm gay, or at least I know that I like boys, I haven't (I don't think) had any sexual attraction to the opposite sex, emotionally though, that's a different story. I knew I liked boys since I was like 10-ish. Though at times I think I'm demisexual or asexual, I think my libido is very polar. I wouldn't say I'm feminine but I'm not masculine to any much degree - but I'm not androgynous, and my voice is kinda higher and gay sounding, but that's alright because I can hit a high C XD and well the D above that on a good day. My uncle is gay, and my grandparents did send him to a straight camp (my grandpa is a Baptist deacon) -- it's funny cause his brother and his wife were protesting it hehe. On the same side I have a great aunt who is lesbian, she is also one of the greatest women I know. I also remember always liking girl stuff more as a little kid, like I would actaully steal my younger sister's barbies, and once I did wear some of her clothes. And in video games I would always want to be a girl, and when I was in 2cd grade my friend and I would play like make believe and stuff and I would be a girl. But I would have no desire to crossdress now, but I really love looking at women's clothing and accessories, kind of like Lana Del Rey/Americana styled, like I saw this coin purse that I literaly was in love with, I would have bought it if I had money; one of my friends said that it was an attraction to femininity.. but I don't understand what he means by that. I tend to get along better with girls, but I have a lot of guy friends too, and a lot of them being pretty masculine, so it's funny lol. I really though, don't want to be a girl nor have a vagina whatsoever. It kind of sucks though, cause my parents are both religous and conservative, (though Im an atheist and liberal) , and my older brother is like them too. But he isn't really a homophobe, but not an ally by any means, and he and my dad make a lot of gay jokes and my dad litarely makes fun of my mom for having a gay brother saying that his side of the family has no gay in it, because for some reason that makes him better.. they have a bad realtionship.I think I was in 6th grade and I was caught with gay porn and they made me pray to Christ to make me straight LOL. And my mom read a text that very much hinted that I liked boys last year and she said that she didnt want me anymore, but I just denied it all. And I go to a Catholic school cause my dad is Catholic, there are a few people that are homophobic, but even some of my teachers think that they themselves are infact gay (it's really funny), but I kind of make a joke about it or flirt with them if they make fun of me, but most people dont really care at all, which is cool, and somehow my whole school knows, I dont know how. And someone made rumors about annaly masturbating with a cucumber, and that I eat my own ***... I havent done either, and it pisses me off that someone would say that. I also was attacked freshman year.. a guy who I was sending fake love letters to pushed me down some stairs then jumped on top of me and try to punch me, but I stood up laughing so I won ;)... though I got ISS....then his friend posted a pic of his broken hand (he missed me and hit my the concrete floor) on facebook and said this is what happens when ___ punched a fag, my mom saw somehow, and showed my school and they did.... nothing. -,-
I'm also like really insecure like most girls are... and it's really annotying