For the past five years I have had a crush on a friend. When we get drunk we tend to mess around sexually with each other, both of us have been the initiator. I came out of the closet about a year ago to only him and a few close other friends, and he has been cool with it and we still fool around occasionally when we've been drinking. He always acts like it never happens. Occasionally he will make out of the nowhere sexually comments like "let's get naked and f***" my reaction is usually "what" and he just says "nothing". The last occurrence happened when we were hanging out sober, I could feel there was a lot of sexual tension it just came down to one of us making the move. I asked him about it thru txt the next day and he said he didn't know what to think about it. He claims he is 100% straight and has had a gf for a long time. He goes from being really buddy buddy with me to sorta distant in cycles. He's really hard to talk to. Secretly love the guy to death but I don't want to risk our friendship by making him uncomfortable and pushing him away, but at the same time I want to be closer with him. Its starting to drive me insane. We are both in our early 20's Any advice would be awesome, especially from someone who has had a similar experience. Thanks ahead of time.